Tomorrow I am flying back to Brisbane.  Unlike the countless times I have jumped on the next plane out of here, this time seems like a task.  I have fully established myself here.  Sydney is a shell.  A  nice safe shell.  From what I don't know.  Leaving tomorrow will be like leaving my comfort zone.  I don't know why.  I can't explain why I feel like this either.  Possibly my choice to stay in Sydney during mid-semester strengthened my ties to Sydney.  I haven't seen my family in 6 months but for some reason that's not bothering me.  I know mum probably has a dropped jaw right now.  To me it always feels like I've just seen them.  I do miss them, always but it doesn't feel like six months since I've seen them.  Only my dad.  I can't wait till he is back from the Territory.  Being away from him pains me the most.  I want to spend more time with him this break.  Somehow spending time with dad feel necessary.  I constantly feel that I haven't (which I know) and I'm going to regret it.  I miss him and being away from him hurts.  It feels like I'm losing time.
 

I wish I could drive.  I would love to drive to the sunshine coast.  Park by the beach and just spend the day in the sun.  There is this nice river which joins the beach at Maroochydore and you drive past it when you come from Bli Bli into Maroochydore.  People are always on boats, fishing, and swimming.  There are mangroves further along the river.  We always drive past it but I would love to stop and spend some time there.  It's so nice.  It is so attractive... picturesque.  I'd love to see more of the towns surrounding the Sunshine Coast.  Noosa is gorgeous but I've only been there once.  Montville is gorgeous as well, up in the mountains.  Good place for shopping and lunch.  I think I will have to convince my cousin to take a drive up.  Ha!  Now I understand the freedom associated with driving.

So many people to see while I’m home.  One of the pains of travelling back to Brisbane is that I have to pay full price everywhere because I’m not enrolled in a QLD institute.  Makes travelling expensive.  A trip to the sunshine coast cost $20!  It’s the reason I spend so much time at mum’s house.  It’s too expensive to do anything in Brisbane.  Sydney is cheaper... for me.

4 days till my birthday.  I have been ‘umm-ing’ and ‘arr-ing’ about what I want.  I think we have established either an ipod and a new phone or just the iphone.  If the plans are too expensive we might as well go for the ipod and just a new phone.  As well as the complete works of Jane Austin!  Sounds good to me.  Jeana bought me a birthday present.  A book of course!  Dead Witch Walking by Kim Harrison.  Finished it today.  It was really good.  Jean might be going back to America for the break so if she does she will buy me some books in America because they cost $7 over there while they’re $20 here! It’s a 3 for one sale! I think she will buy me the Laurel K Hamilton books. 

I believe I will spend my holidays reading.  I can’t think of any other way to spend my holidays.  It’s almost perfect.  Reading books while Joni Mitchell plays  in the background... Alas, I think there is 30 days till Breaking Dawn is released!  How exciting?  What a perfect way to end the Semester Break.  

Did I mention I have a cold?  I caught it on Monday I think.  It's terrible.  My nose feels like it's almost rubbed off!  I really want it to pass.  I'm dreading the descent into Brisbane tomorrow afternoon.  My ears will explode.
What else had happened?  Alina and Hashem moved out :(  'Tis sad.  Jeana and I saw the movie Mongol.  It was really good... non of it was in English.  It was hard to watch the subtitles and the actually movie because of the size of the screen.  I would recomend it.  It was a moving film.

Tonight Estelle and I are having dinner at Inferno for my birthday.  Hannah might be coming but she was doing something in the city so might not make it.  However having dinner with Estelle is fine.  I think I will have to go home and change.  I’m wearing jeans with my Macquarie Jumper.  Nothing I have is clean though... seriously.  I think I am down to my last pair of undies.  It’s expensive to wash clothes here... and also environmentally unfriendly.  I don’t know how much water the large Laundromat washers use. 410 students to 7 washing machines... every week!  Ridiculous!  I envy, Sam, Hannah and Lachlan ‘coz they can take their dirty washing home and not pay!   I could do a small load for tonight and tomorrow and wash everything when I get home.  At least it’s free and water-friendly with mum’s new washing machine.  Tonight I could hand wash some clothes and hang them up while I sleep so I have something clean for tomorrow.  I still need to think of what to wear on the plane; A skirt probably with boots because they’re too bulky for my suitcase.  I wonder how cold it is in Brisbane.... According to the Bureau of Meteorology 22 degrees apparently.  At least Brisbane is getting above 20.  Sydney is always below. 

I feel a little nausiated.  I must go home to change and pack.  Also take some cold and flu medication.  Tomorrow at lunch I will be on a plane.  Tomorrow morning I will be making the horrible unbearable trip to the airport by public transport.  Hopefully when I catch the train the morning rush will be over.  Maybe I should book a taxi to the train station for the morning.  No.  I’ll just call them in the morning.  I hate not having Lucy to drive me to Eastwood Station.  I finally got an email from her.  Instead of 3 days in Hong Kong she spent a month!  Well I know she hadn't seen her parents in a long time.  I'll email her tomorrow when I'm home with wireless internet  *squee*

So what have I been doing since Saturday?  Well... watching dvd's.  Supernatural actually.  I even went out and bought Season 2.  I love it!  Ironic really.  I hate horror things.  I won't even watch horror movies.  I saw 13 Ghosts but after I watched it I thought 'that's a load of rubbish!'  However Supernatural I LOVE and give me anything with Vampires and Warewolves ;)  I bought Queen of the Damned on dvd $6.99 from Target... WOOT bargain!  I have to watch Interview with the Vampire.  I might see if Target has it this weekend.  I heart stock take sales!  Then I should buy the books and read them.  I have 3 15% off vouchers for borders for the first week of July! Lol.  I kinda see that as a birthday present.  That reminds me 10 days till my birthday *squee* No idea what I'm getting... ;) I was hoping for an ipod but I dunno... I guitar would be nice.   Don't know why.  I just really want one and want to be able to play.  My cousin Adrian said he'll teach me.  If I had a guitar that would make it easy.  However I was suppose to get the ipod for Christmas... that reminds me, what did I get for Christmas???  *shrugs*  However I'm going to get an iphone so would I still need an ipod?  I messaged Sophia and told her we're going to a salsa club for my birthday.  It'll make a nice change from regular clubs etc.  I'm so over that.  I was listening to the Dirty Dancing Havana Nights soundtrack and it has made me want to go even more!  Sophia wanted me to go to the Timberland concert with her but it's not my thing.  I like some of his songs but I wouldn't pay to see his concert.

It's very quiet in the village.  Everyone is studying or has gone home.  I'll be going home soon.  Sophia was very happy to know that I’ll be back so soon... it's weird I haven't been home in 6 months!  I can't wait to see people.  My sister wanted me to come home yesterday but no... she kept hanging up on me every time I answered no.  She begged at one point, it was so funny.  I'll have to see Hannah before I go.

I burnt myself the other day.  On the baking dish.  It left a mark.  Small but very visible.  On my wrist!  It was purple for a few days but now it's kind red.... it's now a scar?  Before when it was purple it blistered but now it's actually a scar.  That's two scars I'll have on my right arm.  I have one from when I was about 10.  I put my hand through a window!  They almost look the same...

I've been re-reading Twilight.  I've just started Eclipse.  I think I prefer Twilight to New Moon and Eclipse.  Every time I see my housemate Jeana we act like screaming fangirls... which makes me die a little inside but oh well.  Not many books to get excited about these days.   Haven't been this anxious since the final Harry Potter book.  Well there was the Twisted Citadel but I still haven't read it.  Well I go to chapter 10 an put it down.  I love it and have waiting for soooo long for it's release but I read Twilight before it and I was still tied to it so it didn't compare.  I will have to continue reading it.  My mum has to get on the Twilight bandwagon now.  I'll have to bring the books with me to Brisbane.  (Along with The Prince, Wuthering Heights, Pride and Prejudice, Jane Eyre, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Hamlet  *Twiddles Thumbs*  Yes, I am obsessed with books.  Just don't ask how they'll fit in my bag 'coz I haven't figured that out yet!  Twilight will go on as hand luggage and the others are light enough that they will go in my bag) 

Still can't wait for the film... 44 days till Breaking Dawn comes out :) I think there is going to be a 5th book? Midnight  something ????  Oooo exciting!

I might pre-order Breaking Dawn.  Jeana and I have planned a read-a-thon on the weekend before uni starts which happens to be the weekend Breaking Dawn comes out :)  However Jeana was told by Admin she might have to move because she only payed for a semester and not two.  They say they're all booked for next semester :(  It'll be really sad when she goes.  Alina is moving out too :(   I think her and Hashem want to be closer to the city.

 This weekend is suppose to be a marathon for tv shows.  Serenity, BattleStar Galactica, Supernatural and Pride and Prejudice.  Jeana and I have been waiting for uni to be over so we could laze about and watch dvd's.  Her exams finished yesterday :) 

This is going to sound weird but I can't wait to get home, play some music and sing at the top of voice and not give a shit.  Here in the village it's all tight nicked so you don't play music too loud an you don't sing either... people will hear you!  I usually listen to my music with headphones.  Can't wait to get home and blast all my favourite music.  I think I'll set up in the garage with music, books, records etc and just chill.  Then dad will come home and claim the space *rolls eyes* I plan to spend more time with dad these holidays.  I can't wait till he gets back from the Territory.  He doesn't like it there much.  That surprised me.  He wants to come home.  I guess that also makes me feel special that Dad would rather be here with Heather and Me than in the Territory.  We're his pride and joy :)

I'm coming down with something.  My throat is so sore.  I hate swallowing.  It could pass though... Damn I really need some Butter Menthols.  I just chocked my throat is on fire....Ouch... fuck.... kill me now!